ok, my
sunday. i heard the 8:30am mass at st. paul's - alone. my sisters were too lazy to wake up that early. wore my brown skirt (for the sunny day). it has been awhile the last time i heard a mass alone. so ya, mass, then after i met up with joe and his parents. more like i just said hi to them at mcdo (for supposed breakfast) but my lolo was calling at home so i had to rush back. it was father's day. i called my dad the night before and now need to talk with my lolo. so i left then went home. talked with my lolo and worked on the tickets. just when i thought things won't take too long since his parents invited me to have lunch with them at carrabba's, it was the other way around. the printing took longer than expected. then my sisters left to hear mass, on their way, one of camry's tires went flat. so to their rescue i came. things went fine. i was late for lunch. i was getting uncomfortable with the situation. but he said all is good. so eventually i made it there. good conversation with his parents again. really nice. i had manicotti (loyalty strikes in). then had to leave for the cluster assembly. met up with fellow sfc and started working on the tickets and all. then came sharing. joseph did his sharing, to tell the people that he is leaving on oct. 18 for the airforce. when he actually said the words, he cried [first time i saw him]. i knew a lot of people were sad to hear he's leaving.. but of course proud at the same time. i stayed in a corner pretty away from people but still i felt my skin burn as some people looked at me. a lot of their eyes i felt, sent sympathy (or whatever you call it). several people asked me if it's real or if not that, they said i'll be fine. for some reason, it didn't send me to cry. i just watched everything and took it in. so went on with the whole thing. i wanted some alone time, coz i thought i was tired.so i went to my car, turned the ac on, listened to my cds. then, tears started falling. it confused me why i was crying. i just let them all fall down while i console myself. then he came to my car to check up on me. he asked why i was all teary and emotional again (darn this sensitivity!) i didnt have the nerve to tell him what was troubling me. i let it be.
then the assembly was over. hung around with friends while he talked with his friends. special ones i guess. then practice. i dug my nails into his hands. they didnt bleed so it's ok. little sarcasm. then practice over. it felt a little too early to go home and sleep?? so we decided to watch a movie (3rd night in a row) the longest yard. it's the 2nd time i saw it. on our way to my house, something irritated me big time. i started driving at 60 i think. parked my car. stormed into my room. i had to mellow down. i did somehow - eventually. then we rode in his car. i think i got him worried. thanks to my cap. anyway, later during the night, i calmed down. it didnt take a lot to ease the stress (we'll call it stress). i was pissed. i sucked it in. it was better that way.
after movie, went home. we fell asleep. woke up with the sun up already. hmmm, hello monday... then i said to myself, this better be a better day. let's find out, shall we?
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