Onward and Upward

3 days and counting

three days... it's been hard. well at least today im doing better than the night of oct. 17, afternoon to night of oct. 18, afternoon of oct. 20. oct 19, i think i made it through the day without tears. yay!

but im pathetically trying to busy myself with different things. so you know about the sunday night i drove him to the hotel. sunday night, i was crying so hard. man, that was hard. i didnt tell him i was crying. less drama please. 2.30 i got to sleep. of course monday morning,my eyes were so "normal". he went to our house. i was still in bed when he got here. i cant even look straight into his eyes. my eyes were swollen[darn!]. so he said, "is that from sudden withdrawal from a joseph drug or something like that?" i said, "i think so." then i took my bath then got ready. that was the last day we were together before he flies to texas. so we went to the parents' house. he took care of the last things. he gave me my take-care-of-this list and kept a mental note, and all the little things. had lunch at wasabi, it will be awhile the next time he'll have jap/chinese food at bootcamp. then went around the mall. then to their house. then dinner at panera. i didnt understand if i was actually hungry. i ate anyway, sandwich and soup. then the drive going to a friend's house. all the other young friends gathered there to say bye to joe. some girls cried. i felt for them but good thing i held back. i could have cried a river. on our way there, joe held my hand so tight. i thought he was crying. then off to the ramada hotel. i sat exactly where i was the night before. watched as he checked in, his parents was just a foot away from him. i was jittery again - all over. saying goodbye was really difficult. although i knew it would be barely two months from now that i'll see him again. it was harder than i thought, than we both thought. im terribly missing him, seriously.


the following day, tuesday, the dreaded day, Oct. 18, we watched the swearing [or whatever they really call it] final kiss and hug after. even if we were both sad, so proud we have managed to put smiles on our faces. So proud of you hubby! going home was the difficult part... when i did that tuesday, i was crying a river. cant help it..

posted by abi @ 12:53 PM