almost day 1
so how do i start...15 mins before midnight, the first night i wont be sleeping next to my husband. i drove him to the hotel earlier tonight. this is really sad. when he was checking in for his room and i sat there on the couch, i almost felt jitters all over, butterflies in my tummy [not in a good way though]. and just for the record, no tears - just yet.
since we got married, we were practically spending 24 hours of each day together, unless he had to go to work. and now im here in my room [our room], alone and finally have all the time in the world to blog[sigh], i wanted to cry so bad, but i cant. i dont know when this will hit me, friends said it hasnt sunk in to me yet. i didnt cry when he proposed, when we got married and up until now. tomorrow's the last time i'll see him, at least for the next 6-8 weeks. my counter's down to 1 day i guess. you have no idea what i'll miss since he's not here with me. i've lost count. i dont know yet how tomorrow's going to be. im wearing the shirt he last wore when we spent the night here at our house. it helps, but he's not here. i can feel my eyes welling up with tears but not a single tear hasnt fell yet. .. this is terrible. i wish i could just let go of the tears, so i'll feel better.
when i left the hotel, driving my [numb] self past the pulled-over cars for over-speeding, i listened to my husband's voice message. well joe, i love you too baby and i'll always be thinking of you. i know ill see you again tomorrow, but i just hope you can just hurry back home. i guess this is harder than we both thought it would be.. im really going to miss you. every minute of each day you'll be away.
posted by abi @ 12:59 AM
12 Comments:
what up sis?
whats your #??
hey! i'm just reading this entry! so sad! you will be fine! it's only 2 months! besides it's your time now... abi time! 904-803-4068. avjv@sbcglobal.net .... i work 80 million hours a week so e-mail (i'll respond faster) or call me anytime and i'll try to answer....
you are married now... time and distance can never change that... so be happy you found each other and have each other... forever!
and not to mention... you have a REALLY cool sis n' law (uh, me)... hahaha... and bro n' law too... :) and thanks for backing me up malesa!
so what's up with joseph's phone? jille is trying to call him!
:'(
i thot the assembly would be the last time id see him, so i cried. it took a looong time for this to sink in. assuming you'll be with him at dinner tonite, i'll see you there ate. i love you! im here for you like another lil sis. :)
<3krissy
sad sad moments. but its for OUR future together. we'll pull through. our love is strong enough to endure this.
I LOVE YOU WIFEY!! i'll be thinking about you everyday.
hugs and kisses to my beautiful wife!!
we'll hang out... we'll be JUST FINE! i know it! hehe. =)
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=(
thanks for the love you all.. feels a little better. =)
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