mental notes
sharpen your memory, but exhaust the power of sticky notes. i found my 2004 journal. i need a new one. i want to go sky-diving this year.
i had dinner at auntie ruth's last night. good ol' sinigang. yum! felt good to be around them everytime. she's the most non-judgemental, always calm person that i know of. God bless her heart. i forgot how many weeks it's been ive been home alone. it wasn't too bad. been eating some healthy food lately.
hubby and i will miss the conference. =/ last conference, i was happy i went but it was also the most confusing weekend in the life of me that year, i wanted to go home. details kept in a box and thrown away, sorry. i dont want to go back to that point in my life. it was one of the hardest. you know that feeling you wanted to cry but can't?? oh well.
on a lighter note, it's been a
GLORIOUS DAY!
ma-drama
ma-drama masyado. nakakainis. hay nako. masisisi ba ko kung it bothers me? whatever. bahala na. bad trip. that saturday afternoon. pwede na sana kalimutan e may nabasa ako, kaya medyo bad trip pero im not galit. bad trip lang. tapos kanina, nalaman ko, may nakikisali pa. and demanding, nakakainis. hindi pa kaya iderecho. yun ang mas bad trip!
hay nako, puro bad trip ba.. anyway, work was great. my baker was at the store earlier. she was my happy thought for the day! such a sweetheart! now here at the office. all good. i miss lalot. okay sana inuman.
UPDATE 15 mins later:never mind. cancel that nakakainis. this day is too fabulous to be bothered by such pathetic details. oh well. cheers amigas!last night i met up with the videographer at starbucks. productive meeting. late dinner. i was tired already as early as 7 last night, and i was still at work that time. oh well. and i got a sweet message today! =)
yes yes yessssss!!!!!
im so happy, oh so happy!!! since yesterday that is. i finally found THE baker. the cake, the idea, the taste, the options, the deal! Thank you Lord!! thank you my ever loving bebe!!!! =) im just oh so happy! so excited. it's going to be fabulous! =) when bebe and i finally decided on the cake, i was so giddy. i was so glad i was in my room. i was jumping up and down - very giddily (if there's such a word), dancing (as it may appear to some people if they ever saw) and just clasping my hands and saying thank you over and over to the Big Guy up there. it's coming together!!! =) and she's great to work with. she got what i wanted. sigh. and we have a hotel already! yeeha! then im meeting with the video people this weekend.
anyway, there are still other things happening in my life if you ask. of course, it's not just the wedding all day. work is still work. it's a sunny saturday and im working. i attended the hh meeting at jr's last night. great company. we had this activity of talking (or writing) behind each other's backs - good things that is. it was a very good learning experience. kudos to jon! BUT, those time are never the same without my better half. =/ there's always the pang of is he doing ok? pretty soon, we'll be together.
patience patience.
last night, i heard a talk from arun gogna and bo sanchez. both known to be inspiring christian speakers. animo la salle! arun teaches at la salle benilde, a brother school of where i went to. great talk, really inspiring.
i worked at the store this morning and encountered my first obnoxious customer. i told my manager the lady pissed me off. im usually very patient but she pissed me off big time. good thing my boss kind of let me bitch about it, she heard me. knowing she was on my side made me feel a lot better. there are just really some people who are not thankful for your help. oh well. when she was walking out i said under my breath, please God bless you.
as moving to montana nears, i have been trying to pack us up some nice clothes from here since we have not found a decent place to shop from that is not hours and hours away from where we live. im working on it.
the verdict might be in: we're moving it to the 13th.
on the 13th?
we'll have to see. i came from a meeting with a prospective hotel we can have the reception at yesterday. again, 6th is booked. hayy.. BUT they seemed really nice to work with so i can go with the 13th. joseph is good with it. yay! but, on the other side, mom and dad suggest we keep the original date. well, this is my deal. i'd rather have a nice wedding in a nice place over having it on the 6th with a place we are not too happy about. i understand it's all about how we will celebrate it but for me, the place matters. it might change but as of press time, it does. mom mentioned that if we want to stick with the date, let's just have it where it is available. - i cant do that. it's just once you'll have one, (at least your first church wedding because there might be more when your renew your vows), so i'd like it to be really nice.
im excited! im gradually finding the right people to work with. ill be meeting up with my videographer this weekend. another meeting with another florist next week. will meet the baker soon. i went to a bridal show yesterday. it was not as big as i thought, but oh well. i won a door prize! yey! i tried two possible dresses for the bridal party.
anyway, a handful of people are surprised that i am still working. yup, working both jobs. can't complain. im working with great people - i'll miss them when i move.
i finally have buyers for my lot and (sniff) house. but im happy that they will go to people i trust. thank you jesus!! =)
sometimes when i have the luxury of not being at work and not in a meeting for the wedding or the properties, im so thankful that im finding time to do all these things. kate moved to gainesville for college. lalot's somewhere else too. im all alone at home, no hubby to hug or kiss, no noisy sisters... i guess we're really more grown-up than we think we are.
anyway, it's been a fabulous busy day for me! oh and by the way, i know how to ring people now at the store. i've been procastinating and trying to skip the training. it's cool! bebe, i miss you! i love you!
so much for vivid dreams. it's saturday and i am working at the office. last night, friday night, attempted to sleep at 10. hmm, wasting friday nights?
but rewind. yesterday. i went to work at the office then i left for a meeting at sawgrass to book our wedding. they have a thing scheduled already for OCT 6. i heard my heart break. and the other hotel that we liked have a thing also for that day. they offered the weekend before and after. why cant they have the 6th? sigh. every since i got here, ive been running wedding errands. got a florist and she's happy with my cake idea! =) im so excited. a videographer. got our church options. wedding dress. bridal party dresses. last night, i was at the shop and tried on 5 wedding dresses. i still get sprung to the one that i liked the first. and two of the possible gowns for the bridal party. i was ecstatic. it shows at least somehow things are getting together (although we need a hotel still). joe and i have decided on our favors already. sad is im doing this alone. i know how much joseph wants to be here. blame it all on the circumstances - of me having to be here and him, having to be there. and on top of that, im missing one of the best parts of being married - moving in!!! oh well.
i got so many things i want done before i leave jax. plus the lot and the house. the lot's okay, i got a buyer already, yeepee!! oh well, got to split. oh and by the way, i missed a seminar at the store this morning. it was at 9, i thought it was at 10. blah. all good, no harm done. and im working tonight too - until closing. all good, ill need the extra bucks soon! i miss my bebe. we're apart too long.
talk about dreams
this is soo long overdue. but the most significant parts ever since i came home from montana.. my dreams, they're crazy!
dream no. 1
i have a baby. a baby boy and he's the sweetest thing. he was 4-5 months old and in my dream i was carrying him the whole time. joseph was there too and he carried the baby too when i met him at the end of the halfway or something like that. oh... we had a baby!! a lot of my friends are saying, maybe i am pregnant. but no.. im not pregnant, i can't be pregnant. oh well.. he had a name. maybe it is a sign, haha!! baby boi!!
dream no. 2
i had a dream about Jesus Christ and the satan. seriously. creepy.
dream no. 3
a dog biting me.
more to come.. ola!
